Day 27 - Monday, August 31st

What made me smile today?

The faces Baby made while eating a wedge of lemon

Baby doing his stamping thing while playing with a tennis ball

Baby playing with the tomato 'jelly' at lunch

What triggered me today?

I was rather grumpy this morning, due to severe lack of sleep (completely my fault though - Baby slept so well he slept the entire night in his own cot). It didn't so much trigger anything though, it was just that by midday I didn't have anything left and just needed a little bit of time to myself to get back to normal. I ended up deciding to go out for the afternoon as I knew I would struggle if we stayed at home, and the rest of the day went so much smoother.

What would I have done differently today?

I'm so bad at checking the temperature of food before giving it to Baby. But then I think he reacts even when food is only warm because he's used to eating food stone cold... But anyway I would have checked the fish before giving it to Baby.

What will I try to do tomorrow?

Triggers, voice, be gentle, limits.

What am I grateful for?

Bank holiday today, which means only a 2 day work week! Surviving on less than 6 hours sleep.

Day 26 - Sunday, August 30th

What made me smile today?

Baby chewing on his toast - I'm sure his cheeks have gotten even bigger

Baby stacking his boxes

What triggered me today?

No triggers today, despite sleeping far too late. The extra adult helps - when I can get the things I need to do done, everything goes so much smoother. It also helps that risotto is always neater.

What would I have done differently today?

We did well today.

What will I try to do tomorrow?

Remember triggers, be gentle, no loud voice.

What am I grateful for?

Baby letting me doze until 8 this morning. Somehow ending up with not very much to do tonight, so I got quite a bit of sit-down-and-do-nothing time.

Day 25 - Saturday, August 29th

What made me smile today?

Baby placing the door stop in the right position to hold the bathroom door open this morning

Baby attempting to grab the apple I picked up while we were in Tesco, and then attempting to take a bite with a huge smile on his face

What triggered me today?

Nothing today - spending a good part of the day out does help! And sausages for dinner...

What would I have done differently today?

We had a good day today :)

What will I try to do tomorrow?

Remember limits, triggers, and be gentle.

What am I grateful for?

Making the most of the sunshine today, and getting home before the rain.

Day 24 - Friday, August 28th

What made me smile today?

Baby's ability to be so gentle at times

Wondering what it means when Baby opens and closes his hands after I brush his teeth

Baby exploring new areas of the playground

Baby's giggle when he sees me when his dad takes him out of his room after his nap

Baby's babbling, and sometimes thinking I'm hearing an English word

Baby has a habit of putting his leg on his table, but he's been getting so much better at putting it back down again when I ask

What triggered me today?

I don't really remember specifics. I just remembering being grumpy when we came home from the playground in the afternoon as I was quite hot and tired, and I had a huge list of things to get through before I could settle myself again. And dinner again was messy, so that got me a little grumpy too.

What would I have done differently today?

I do remember being not as gentle as I would have liked at some point today (can't quite remember the specific scenario anymore!). I wish I could be gentle all the time.

What will I try to do tomorrow?

Triggers - breathe! Be gentle. Try not to go on about Baby being messy too much.

What am I grateful for?

Discovering the volunteer gardening scheme in the area which focuses on children and the elderly. Baby is too young at the moment to get into gardening, but I do hope that wherever we are in a few years time the council will have a similar scheme. In the meantime I look forward to visiting the garden and farm nearby, maintained by the volunteers.

Day 23 - Thursday, August 27th

What made me smile today?

Baby's stamping

Baby deciding that today would be the day he would try to put the different shapes into the matching holes (but of course he didn't want the lid with the holes on the box... he wanted it on the floor)

Despite being very whiny today Baby was able to play by himself for decent amounts - he seems to be getting better at this I think

What triggered me today?

Oh by the afternoon I was just too tired and everything pretty much got to me. I think both of the big ones was Baby not being ready to transition, (i.e. leave tesco, get out of the bath) even though I had given warning. Granted I had been distracted both times... perhaps he sensed my distraction and not being all there.

What would I have done differently today?

Had a coffee! I unfortunately think that part of my lethargy was due to lack of caffeine...

What will I try to do tomorrow?

Have a coffee, in the morning. Triggers, voice, be gentle, limits.

What am I grateful for?

Baby's good nap timing today, which meant he was able to fall asleep quickly when it was time for bed.

Day 22 - Wednesday, August 26th

What made me smile today?

Baby discovering I have a belly button too

And then Baby cried so it was time to sleep and thus I did not finish my journal entry for this day...

Day 21 - Tuesday, August 25th

What made me smile today?

Baby's generally good mood today

What triggered me today?

Nothing! He even threw his spoon on the floor twice, and threw the brochure into the wet bathtub even though I told him not to, and I was just all calm and patience today. Amazing what an extra adult and and extra day at home can do I suppose.

What would I have done differently today?

After Baby threw his spoon on the floor the 1st time I told him if he did it again I would assume he was done with dinner. Then he ate some more before throwing his spoon onto the floor the 2nd time. At which point I didn't give him his spoon back, but when I took his plate away he reached for it, so I left it on his tray and let him eat what he wanted to with his hands. Should I have been more firm and taken the plate away? I suspect I should have.... *sigh* but perhaps a valid consequence of dropping his spoon is to just let him eat without his spoon??

What will I try to do tomorrow?

Triggers, voice, be gentle, think about limits

What am I grateful for?

Baby is all better today - no more temperature. And Baby was in a very good mood today. And sleeping in an extra 20 mins but still managing to make it in to nursery/work only 5 minutes late.

Day 20 - Monday, August 24th

What made me smile today?

Baby's distinct yelp for food - it is exactly the same every time. Today he was yelping for an apple and his dad played a video he took of Baby yelping for food from the other day, and it was identical - you could hardly tell the difference between the live yelp and the video yelp.

What triggered me today?

Putting Baby to sleep tonight was a little difficult. It took him a long time to fall asleep, and usually when it goes past 30 minutes I tend to get annoyed as I always have a long list of things I need to do once Baby has gone to sleep, and him taking an hour to sleep doesn't really help.

What would I have done differently today?

Perhaps I should have done some of my chores while Baby napped (he napped for about 2.5 hours!). But I spent nearly all of that time doing nothing productive.

What will I try to do tomorrow?

Remember triggers, voice and be gentle.

What am I grateful for?

Baby's temperature stayed in the healthy range today. And the tube strike being called off - no need to put Baby in strange unfamiliar emergency childcare anymore.

Day 19 - Sunday, August 23rd

What made me smile today?

Baby has now added fish to the list of animals that he is able to (or at least attempt to) make noises for :)

Baby stamping his foot

Baby blowing/spitting off the sugar from the spoon as I was attempting to give him sugar before the calpol (which he despises) - so cheeky!

Baby being incredibly wary of his dinner, as I'd cooked fried rice for the parents but porridge for the baby, and he was very aware that he had a different dinner. He did make feeble attempts to eat it, but it was only after he watched us both eat a whole (baby) plate of his porridge that he decided it was ok to eat and he pretty much gobbled down the rest after that - again so cheeky!

What triggered me today?

Nothing I think. I had another adult, Baby was a bit mellow today because he's sick, and we woke up at 11, as he was sick and was up for a few hours in the middle of the night. It's amazing how much quicker the day passes when you wake up at 11!

What would I have done differently today?

Possibly considered attempting to give Baby his calpol on an empty stomach... but he probably would have just vomited up water so is there any point in finding the best time?

What will I try to do tomorrow?

Remember triggers, voice, and be gentle.

What am I grateful for?

Baby's temperature coming down overnight. Still higher than normal, but thankfully now down from almost 40 last night. And Baby letting me sleep in until 11.

Day 18 - Saturday, August 22nd

What made me smile today?

Baby splashing in the paddling pool in Ravenscourt Park

Despite being incredibly tired this morning, I still found Baby requesting me to read his books several times endearing

Baby points to and looks at his own feet whenever we come across the page about the monkey and its feet in his monkey book

What triggered me today?

Again, no real triggers. Having another adult around does make a difference. The only thing was waking up far too early (as I had gone to bed far too late) so I was a bit useless in the morning, which made for a difficult morning. But we recovered quite well from it.

What would I have done differently today?

Tried not to snooze when we woke up this morning, as I know it never ends well, but I was so tired!

What will I try to do tomorrow?

I really should be in bed already, but alas I am not, and so I will have to rely on my super powers tomorrow to remember not to react to my triggers, be gentle, and use a less loud voice.

What am I grateful for?

It was so sunny and hot and lovely in London today.

Day 17 - Friday, August 21st

What made me smile today?

Baby making his cow and elephant noises, especially elephant as he raises his arm like the elephant's trunk like I always do

Baby chomping his way through most of a whole peach in the morning and through most of a whole largish apple in the afternoon

I shouldn't find this amusing but Baby seems to have a genuine fear of his toy shark, he looked so scared and backed away when I attempted to introduce him to the shark

What triggered me today?

It wasn't dinner - he ate so well today. I can't quite remember what exactly he did but it was in the morning before breakfast, I guess perhaps I just hadn't properly woken up yet.

What would I have done differently today?

I would have been more gentle. I want Baby to be gentle yet how can I expect that of him if I'm not able to be gentle myself :(

What will I try to do tomorrow?

Remember - triggers, voice, be gentle. Maybe attempt to implement phase 2 of revamping the living room area.

What am I grateful for?

That Baby and I have a home to live in...

Day 16 - Thursday, August 20th

What made me smile today?

Watching Baby take out all the cans from the cupboard and carry them around

Baby stamping his foot (makes him look like he's doing some really funky dance move)

Realising I now recognise the noise he makes when he wants food (or more specifically food that he can see but that I don't really intend for him to eat, sometimes not at that very moment, sometimes not at all)

What triggered me today?

No triggers! Not quite sure what was so different about today. There were still plenty of potential triggers. And all the usual things that trigger me did happen today. Perhaps it helped that Baby was able to amuse himself while I cooked dinner, even though he was super tired. And I could see he was trying to eat less messily during dinner. Perhaps the picnic lunch out in St James' Park helped too.

What would I have done differently today?

Nothing!

What will I try to do tomorrow?

Triggers, voice, limits.

What am I grateful for?

No rain today so we could enjoy our picnic lunch in the park with Clara :)

Day 15 - Wednesday, August 19th

What made me smile today?

The sound Baby makes whenever he sees a picture of a cow (I think he's trying to moo but it's not quite happening)

I shouldn't find this funny, but Baby was bitten today at nursery and I could still see the individual teeth marks of the biter on Baby's chin when we came home - it was a full mouth chomp! Poor baby!

What triggered me today?

Dinner mess :( The mess shouldn't come as a surprise to me, but it still keeps getting me.

What would I have done differently today?

I would have told myself that the dinner mess is not a big deal and kept it in mind.

What will I try to do tomorrow?

Try not to think that Baby can do better at dinner time... because I do think he can do better. And I think this is why the dinner mess keeps getting to me. He can eat so much better than he is right now - I've seen it. But for some reason he is not, and I need to accept that.

What am I grateful for?

Baby eating pretty much all his broccoli today.

Day 14 - Tuesday, August 18th

What made me smile today?

Seeing Baby's huge smile when he saw me at nursery this afternoon

Baby's cheeky face after I finished washing his hair

What triggered me today?

I overreacted when Baby started pulling out the plastic bags from the bag bin... I saw it coming from a mile away but I still couldn't catch it. It doesn't help when it happens while I'm trying to get dinner together and I'm starving. But I do need to put it into perspective and tell myself it isn't that bad if he pulls out the plastic bags (yes it is!!) and I can take a moment to calm myself rather than rushing in to stop him (no I can't!) - ok, clearly I have some work to do here...

What would I have done differently today?

I would have been able to tell myself that pulling out plastic bags from the bin is not such a big deal.

What will I try to do tomorrow?

Breathe before a trigger...

What am I grateful for?

Baby doing all his poos at nursery today :)

Day 13 - Monday, August 17th

What made me smile today?

Baby seems to enjoy sitting in the new (2nd hand) chair that I bought for him on Friday

Baby's obvious joy when I gave him the new ball that I bought for him on Saturday

Baby spending a very long time (over half an hour?) playing with his shampoo bottle which I emptied in tonight's bath

Baby refusing to give me the bottle when it was bed time, and so he ended up going to bed with the bottle - he must be the only baby who has cuddled a shampoo bottle to sleep??

What triggered me today?

There were no triggers! I think that's what a day at work will do...

What would I have done differently today?

Should I have given in and let Baby have more cheese before dinner? Even though I said no more?
Should I have been more firm and not let Baby take the shampoo bottle to bed? (not that I have any idea how I would have taken it from him without forcibly snatching it from him, and what would that have taught him?)

What will I try to do tomorrow?

Triggers, voice, limits.

What am I grateful for?

That I have a job and I am able to work part-time.

Day 12 - Sunday, August 16th

What made me smile today?

Baby discovering his belly button

What triggered me today?

There were a few things today. I feel like I'm getting better at the dinner mess and I didn't overreact today. But I did overreact when Baby managed to grab the tiniest edge of glad wrap that was hanging over the edge and managed to pull it. I don't really know why it caused such a disproportionate reaction from me. Perhaps it was a build up of all the little triggers that I managed to hold together until that one, perhaps it was my overly busy Sunday...

What would I have done differently today?

I would not have said what I did after Baby pulled on the glad wrap.

What will I try to do tomorrow?

Triggers, quiet voice.

What am I grateful for?

Baby sleeping in til 9 this morning.

Day 11 - Saturday, August 15th

What made me smile today?

Baby making noises as we walked down the stairs on our way out - I think he likes the way his voice echoes in the stairway

While we were sitting near Baby's play area, I noticed Cecil (the lion) had somehow made it to the kitchen. I told Baby Cecil looked lonely all on his own in the kitchen so maybe he should bring him over so he wouldn't be lonely anymore, and Baby got up and brought Cecil over and gave him a hug - so incredibly sweet! (He then threw Cecil onto the floor, but I did mention Baby's Jekyll and Hyde behaviour towards Cecil in a previous post...)

What triggered me today?

Baby mess while he's trying to eat during dinner is in reality ok - I just don't handle mess very well sometimes (ok most of the time). But today he made a mess playing with his food - this I cannot tolerate. I did yell after he flung the plate off his tray (which thankfully landed right side up), more out of shock than anger though as it was quite unexpected.

What would I have done differently today?

I don't know how I could have avoided yelling today - it was so uncharacteristic of Baby and appeared quite out of the blue. I haven't had much practise at these types of triggers.

What will I try to do tomorrow?

Remember the triggers, remember the voice.

What am I grateful for?

Baby is a lot of hard work, but one thing I am super grateful for is that he seems to be breezing through his teething (in comparison to other stories I have heard and read). He seems completely fine during the day, and the only hint I get that he is in pain is when he wakes up crying at night - and even then after I apply the gel (another thing I am extremely grateful for) there's only a few more minutes of crying and then he stops and falls asleep again. He's usually able to sleep through the rest of the night. To me, this sounds pretty easy.

Day 10 - Friday, August 14th

What made me smile today?

Watching Baby rubbing his feet together while he eats his meals

Baby's cheeks as he chews his food (omg those cheeks)

Baby looking for the mouse on each page of his book

What triggered me today?

So many triggers today, but surprisingly I didn't feel like I'd completely lost it on any of them (I did kind of lose it on some of them), even with a splitting headache all day. Dinner was messy, I tried the basil picking again today, Baby stuck his hand into the rice bag multiple times and threw rice all over the floor, Baby got into his nappy box twice and threw his nappies everywhere, he played with the box by the bin with the obvious intent of getting my attention... to name a few.

What would I have done differently today?

Perhaps I should have explained to Baby that we were going to take a photo for his passport before we arrived at the store... it may have ended more successfully.

What will I try to do tomorrow?

Remember those triggers and remember less loud voice.

What am I grateful for?

Baby seems to have gotten over his vaccination fever yay!!

Day 9 - Thursday, August 13th

What made me smile today?

Baby giving me a huge smile before falling asleep while we were walking to the tube station

The way Baby asks for something and how his tone gradually becomes more urgent if he is being ignored - I have to try to capture this in a video one day, it's hilarious

How Baby seems to have a love hate relationship with his soft toy lion and how he knows his name is Cecil (yes, I named him Cecil as Tahseen gave it to Baby literally the day after Cecil news broke and all I could think of was Cecil every time I looked at it)

What triggered me today?

Not dinner today! But only because Baby was unwell from his vaccinations, so he only had toast for dinner. I expect I'll struggle again once he recovers, which I really hope is sooner rather than later. Instead, I thought I would let Baby help me by picking off the leaves from the basil plants I bought today. He loved picking off the leaves, however he also loved putting his hands into the bowl and squishing the picked leaves in his hands. I had to ask him to stop several times, and in the end I got rather annoyed that he wasn't able to stop squishing and bruising my leaves. However, in hindsight, I do understand why he kept doing it and I should have seen it at the time...

What would I have done differently today?

Perhaps not used such a stern voice when asking Baby not to squish my basil leaves.

What will I try to do tomorrow?

Rethink my stern voice.

What am I grateful for?

Baby's vomit after breakfast this morning being seemingly quite harmless (I hope this doesn't come back to bite me).

Day 8 - Wednesday, August 12th

What made me smile today?

Baby climbing into his box and rowing his hands as I sang 'row row row your boat'

Baby's babbling - there are no words to describe how cute his babbling is

What triggered me today?

Dinner! So incredibly messy. He's always been messy at dinner (although I have been treated to some relatively unmessy dinners in the past) but for some reason he seems to be even messier these days (might have something to do with him feeding himself now) and for some even stranger reason my tolerance for Baby's dinner mess seems to have diminished to almost nothing this week. It might be the combination of more mess and lack of sleep.

What would I have done differently today?

Dealt with my lack of mess tolerance better?

What will I try to do tomorrow?

Take one step closer to conquering the dinner mess demons.

What am I grateful for?

Being able to work only 3 days a week so I can spend 4 days at home with Baby.

Day 7 - Tuesday, August 11th

What made me smile today?

Picking Baby up from nursery

Baby passing me his stacking boxes so I could talk to him about the pictures on the boxes

What triggered me today?

Dinner time again, I was prepared today but was still angry when he stood up in his chair. I actually caught the 'end of dinner' signs, but I just took too long to clear up his table before taking him out.

What would I have done differently today?

Do I spend more time with him instead of washing/cleaning up? Today I felt like perhaps I should have spent just a bit less time cleaning up...

What will I try to do tomorrow?

Work on dinner time triggers again.

What am I grateful for?

Baby is definitely not concussed - yay!

Day 6 - Monday, August 10th

What made me smile today?

Waking up to Baby sleeping peacefully in my bed this morning

Baby's huge smile when I came to pick him up from nursery

Baby's legs (I have a Baby leg fetish... perhaps it's partly because I know now that nearly all the movement I felt when I was pregnant was his legs constantly pushing against my tummy)

What triggered me today?

I've realised that I can deal with triggers perfectly fine when I'm not doing anything. For example, coming home on the district line today Baby was terribly restless and almost managed to wriggle out of the sling, the sling which I had tied so neatly was a complete shambles by the time we got home. All this I found very annoying, but I was able to avoid the bubbling explosion feeling, because I was just sitting on the tube doing nothing (besides pandering to Baby's constant wriggling).
On the other hand, during dinner I became disproportionately upset because Baby was eating very messily (which meant I would have a more difficult time cleaning up afterwards) and was making it very difficult for me to eat my dinner. And then he lost interest in eating and started waving and banging his spoon (as he usually does) while I was frantically trying to finish my own meal which I had put aside while I was trying to help him eat his. In the end he was ready to come out of his chair before I was finished, and if I don't finish my meal in one sitting I get irrationally irritated. What I need to do here is change my expectations - there will be a lot mess that I will have to clean up (wishful thinking if I hope otherwise), and be thankful I'm able to eat some dinner with him.

What would I have done differently today?

I would have dealt with my 'dinner feelings' better, but goodness, with me being so tired and hungry and it being so late already, I don't know how I would have.

What will I try to do tomorrow?

Try to make sure I deal with dinner triggers. Baby eats messy - that's normal, he's still learning! I will probably not be able to finish my dinner - oh well!

What am I grateful for?

Baby is so forgiving - I make so many mistakes yet he still comes to me for cuddles and kisses.

Day 5 - Sunday, August 9th

What made me smile today?

Seeing Baby jump for the first time

Marvelling at how far Baby can walk, when he wants to

Baby pointing and shouting at the tree outside the window every time I talk to him about the tree on his stacking boxes

What triggered me today?

Too many things :( Baby rolling several times before I'd finished cleaning his bottom (he does this when he's tired), Baby standing up in his high chair before finishing his dinner (although this didn't really push me), Baby coming into the bathroom while I was dealing with his poopy nappy (totally my fault - he's just being curious like a normal toddler - I need to deal with this scenario better), Baby playing with the box by the bin, and so many more...
Both Baby and I were just too tired today. I do so much better when I've had a few more hours of sleep. How do I keep it together on hardly enough sleep?

What would I have done differently today?

I remember using a rather loud voice a lot today. I would have been less loud.

What will I try to do tomorrow?

Be less loud, as I am most likely going to be sleep deprived again tomorrow.

What am I grateful for?

Baby getting away with just a nasty a bruise on his head after falling backwards and hitting it on the coffee table. Thank goodness there was no blood, but I saw a very distinct indent in his head for quite a few minutes after it happened - babies' heads must be so soft! I was worried he had concussion, but I think he's ok...

Day 4 - Saturday, August 8th

What made me smile today?

Baby crawling under a blackboard sign (the ones that look like a A standing on the ground outside pubs and things) to escape the heat while we were out walking along the river

Baby putting his toys through the gaps onto the other side of the gate, then yelling at them because he could no longer reach them

What triggered me today?

Just before Baby's bedtime (which was late today because he napped late) he was walking around drinking from his cup of water and he spilled it. He was tired, and I was tired, I didn't quite catch the trigger in time but I knew exactly what had happened as soon as it happened. How can you catch these better when you're tired at the end of a long day?

What would I have done differently today?

Maybe I should not have watched the entire movie tonight in one sitting... I'm going to be so tired tomorrow!

What will I try to do tomorrow?

Try to remember in my tiredness to catch those triggers and just pause before reacting.

What am I grateful for?

Baby sleeping through til at least 1:30am, which meant I was able to finish watching an entire movie before going to bed. However that means I am going to sleep far too late.

Day 3 - Friday, August 7th

What made me smile today?

Tying Baby's hair into a ponytail this morning and seeing the photo - his hair is so lovely I can't bear to cut it, but that also means he is mistaken for a girl 100% of the time

Reading Baby's favourite book to him for something like the 10th time

Realising that when Baby sways from side to side it usually means he's *really* happy (and/or singing a song)

After months of using my arm as an elephant trunk as I make an elephant noise whenever we see a picture of an elephant (usually in his animal book) Baby this morning raised his arm and made a noise (not quite elephant like) when he saw the elephant in his animal book - my heart melted

What triggered me today?

This morning was full of triggers... both Baby and I were grumpy this morning. But 2 incidents stand out. The first was when I was pulling out Baby's chair for lunch - I raised my voice when he played with the box by the bin (something he is not allowed to do) and I moved him back to his play area. That incident came after many trying moments the entire morning... how does one not eventually get frustrated? The second was when I was cooking dinner he was playing by my feet and he ended up pulling out the panel underneath the oven - again I was frustrated because I was cooking and didn't have time to explain to him not to play with the panel. It's problematic because I do allow him to be with me in the kitchen while I'm cooking because I know he just wants to be close, but that does mean that the potential for triggers is much higher as my attention is divided - is there a better way?

What would I have done differently today?

I would have been less stern... I remember being rather stern today.

What will I try to do tomorrow?

Be a bit more efficient writing my journal entry? Why did today's take so long? Perhaps there was more to reflect on today.

What am I grateful for?

Baby is healthy and happy. Seeing fb posts from Friends of Finlay makes my heart cry - he's suffered so much, yet is still so strong and has so much spirit. He's not much older than Baby.

Day 2 - Thursday, August 6th

What made me smile today?

Enjoying a moment of just being together on the benches outside Tesco

Watching Baby explore the new playground we discovered by the river

What triggered me today?

Baby throwing 2 of his lovely cardboard boxes into the bathtub as I was preparing his bath - I spoke to him sternly about not throwing them in but perhaps my voice was too stern?

What would I have done differently today?

I would have written in my journal before doing my usual 'me' things. This post nearly did not get written (or at least posted in a timely manner) as Baby woke up fussing just as I was sitting down to write this... oops!

What will I try to do tomorrow?

Try to use the word 'no' with Baby less.

What am I grateful for?

Currently living so close to the river - Baby really seems to love anything to do with water now.

Day 1 - Wednesday, August 5th

What made me smile today?

Picking up Baby from nursery and seeing the joy in his face as he walked to me with his huge smile and arms open (will I say this every Mon/Tues/Wed? At the risk of appearing very repetitive I just might, but it really does make my heart swell every time)

Baby placing the cans so gently into the bowl - it made me realise he doesn't always throw them around!

Baby spending a good few minutes repeatedly bouncing up to stand on his tippy toes and back down again - I'm sure he's getting ready to jump, I think his first jump might be soon!

What triggered me today?

Baby repeatedly closing the sink stopper with his foot while I was cleaning him up after dinner... it doesn't always get to me but today it did, possibly because I was tired and still had a pile of things to do. But thankfully I saw it and didn't let it get to me! So it didn't escalate, I just took a very brief moment and then managed to finish cleaning him without feeling like I was losing it - yay!

What would I have done differently today?

I would not have raised my voice when Baby decided to roll before I had finished cleaning up his poopy bottom.

What will I try to do tomorrow?

I don't have anything specific in mind for tomorrow... but I'll try to remember to keep an eye on those triggers (as I should do every day).

What am I grateful for?

Oh so many things, but today I am thankful Baby was able to (finally, after much trouble) fall asleep on the tube ride home from work today.